Confessions of a stay-at-home-mom

I believe in God. I also believe in living my life transparently. As many friends know, I am a bit shy. I've always been a quiet person and that has kept me from many opportunities to build relationships that go beyond "the surface". Part of me wants to keep all of my insecurities to myself, but as I try to change into a transparent person, I realize that God has my back no matter what other people think of me. As long as I trust in him and obey his commandments, I'll be perfect in His eyes.

Have you ever wondered what I am really like? Maybe for years you've thought that you knew me, but now aren't sure. Once I realized that my husband loved me for all of my wierdness, I set off to set the rest of my relationships straight and go with the honest truth. It's been a fun experience for me. I realize that I have fun laughing at myself. It's actually brought me closer to many of my friends and family members too.

Here are a few fun facts about me that maybe you didn't really need to know:

*I shave my toe hairs more often than I shave my legs.
*I have dance-offs with myself in the mirror when the kids and husband are away.
*I secretly listen to Britany Spears on my MP3. There are a few songs though that just make me want to puke....
*I pick my nose, but have very long-ago given up eating what I pick.
*When someone tells me that my kids are very good looking, I fully agree.
*I have a complex with wanting to be the best at everything.
*I fear that if I stop exercising, my husband will think that I am unattractive.
*I have an addiction to granulated, processed sugar.
*OK, I have an addiction to food.
*I am intrigued by the Real Housewives of Orange County as well as A Baby Story, but don't have cable now so I can't watch either.
*I am a frequent showerer....sometimes 2-3 a day. It may have something to do with my super sensitive sense of smell.
*In high school, I swam because I couldn't stand sweating...but swimming in my sweat was apparently just fine with me.
*I have mood swings.....all the time.
*I have a weakness for Big Macs.
*I know that it wasn't in God's plans for me to have a little girl, but I still wonder often what it would be like...Sometimes my thoughts bring me to tears.

I love my friends and family with all my heart. I promise to be as honest and open as I can. It's the least that I can do for those people that truly want me to be a part of their lives. It is my prayer that they will all be transparent with me also.